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Travis was an emotional journey from the very start. Back in January when I found out I was pregnant with our second baby I immediately started to panic. I wasn't sure if I could actually endure another pregnancy like Landon's. Landon's pregnancy has made me terrified beyond reason to throw-up, and I knew it would be too good to be true if I didn't get sick with Travis. Well I didn't, but at 11 weeks along, Jesse and I were in Wal-Mart when I felt a rather large gush of blood. That night we went to the ER fully expecting me to be miscarrying the baby. At around 2:00 am I received an ultrasound to confirm that the baby was still alive but under a lot of stress. My placenta had partly torn away from my uterus. When the doctor came in she told me that I shouldn't have too high expectations for the baby to make it. After a lot of prayer and patience, he did make it and now he is here in my arms where I can keep him safe. I'll never forget when they threw him on my chest after he was delivered, I was both disgusted with all the after-birth and overwhelmed that I was holding my little miracle in my arms. There was no doubt in my mind that God does hear and answer our prayers.

When we introduced Landon and Travis to one another it didn't go over very well. Needless to say, Landon actually tried to kick him. After this initial meeting he continued to take his jealousy out on me and the baby. He would hit me and the baby just to make me mad. It was extremely hurtful to feel like my little Landon hated me. After two hard weeks Landon recently accepted Travis into the family. He will now acknowledge me as Mama and let me take care of him without putting up a fight. Instead of being a terrible two year-old he has become Mommy's little helper. It is important to Landon to feel involved; he has to help take Penny potty, put the dishes away, help give Travis baths, hold the bottle while Travis eats, and he likes to get things that the baby needs. I think Travis and Landon will be good friends when they're older.



Landon and Travis



Landon loves the water bottle I got from the hospital.
He wanted Travis to have one too.



Landon loves to feed Travis his bottles.

Landon helping dad clean the kitchen.

Landon helping mom put the grocery's away. He really likes to
put the water bottles in the fridge.

It has been a difficult jouney learning how to have 2 kids. I didn't expect it to change my everyday life so much. I can't clean as much as I would like and I feel like a slave to my children's tummys (and mine too!). I love being a Mom and I am learning how to be a Mom to both Landon and Travis.